It's pretty late here in NY. I am not tired at all right now for some reason. I am siting in the nook area of our apt. I'm sitting at a tan colored scrawny little table from IKEA with four chairs, by the window watching it snow outside. NY seems so peaceful when it snows. There is a beautiful fluffy white blanket of snow outside. This is officially my first snow while a NY resident. Of course I have seen snow before, but never as a resident of another state. It is awesome. I am reflecting a lot and I am learning so much. Patience is one thing I must say I am mastering out here. Everything is a waiting game. A little bit of an oxymoron because NY is so fast paced but being patient in the direction my life evolves in is important. Waiting on God. God has been diligent in providing me with opportunities but I realize it is on his time. While I wait for doors to open I am avidly putting myself out there. I must say I am filled with joy and peace. In addition, happiness is another feeling I am really embracing. I am truly happy with my decisions in my life right now. I am making them all for the RIGHT reasons. Making the decisions for myself, God and humanity as a whole. I am not trying to impress any one individual, rather in my actions I think if Jesus was here today would he make these decisions? My main objective is to make a difference and be full of love whether it be on a small or large scale. I can not express how much contentment I feel in following my heart to fulfill that objective.
In other news, on thursday I got hired for another job. It sounds like a huge load, but I am so used to being busy so I love having a jam packed schedule where I can be useful and out making a difference. This job is a translation job. I will be working for a company called LIS translations. In this position I will travel to different locations, compliments of the subway (i love not having to drive!) and basically will be acting as a liaison between the students and teachers. I will be translating from arabic to english and english to arabic for the students and teachers. I am really excited about it. I start on Tuesday March 3rd. It will be a fun journey.
Finding what fits in my life has taken time as well. This is a fantastic time in my life because life is not happening to me, I am happening to life. I am dictating the relationships, the jobs, the involvement, and really the people in my life. I love it. It has been difficult finding a church that I like however. My church back home Rockharbor was an amazing place where I was very involved and I really felt God moving. I am very weary about churches because I want to make sure the church is existing for all the right purposes. I am reading a book with a plethora of information by someone I have so much respect for, Mike Erre. The books is called "Death by Church."
It is a great book and I am enjoying it so much. So this brings me to my point, I went to Times Square Church and I brought a friend from work with me. This person hadn't been to church in awhile so I think it was a great opportunity to rekindle things for him, as it was no mistake we both ended up going to service. The message was good, but I felt that there were a few things I did not agree with that took place. Nothing bad, but I have a certain standard if I am going to be attending a church. It is important to find a church you connect with and feel God in, not all churches will suffice. So I am continuing my searching. I listen to the Rockharbor podcasts and thats what keeps me going as well as my readings.
Things are going well and I am content, happy, full of love, alive, passionate and at peace. I do not want to fake a facade however that everything is perfect. Nothing is perfect. To be completely honest it gets very lonely at times. Loneliness of being of being away from my family (especially my sister who is my other half), being away from all that has shaped me into the person I am today. But I must say we are never alone, God is always present waiting to comfort us. In this I find peace. In this I have grown stronger. In this I am constantly full of love. Nothing can take that away from me. On the bright side I am meeting amazing friends and growing and learning so much.
Carpe Diem!
